[As i walk down these crowded halls i ask myself if it's real?
If love is true...
And suddenly these endless thoughts go to waste as i see you walk
All i hear is that angel in your voice,
that sweet morning hello and that meaningless hug,
the only thing i can see as we walk is your beautiful heart and then we part
while these thoughts of you surrownd my mind everything comes into reach,
this is just a hopeless love, but none the less it is still love in it's self]











this is a song [x.Andrew Hollywood] wrote


[I'm on the edge of the 16th story
looking back at the life i used to have
you tell me what you want from me
how can i lose to make you right



I wish you'd open up those doors
let him out so you can let me in, now
just tell me those three little words
and i'll give up the life i'm living out



tell me why i try
i do this everyday for you
tell me why i cry
i'll be your best kept secret



i look down my unwrit pathway
you're the dead end of this road and
you lay there in a pile
of hope for the only love you've known



tell me why i try
i do this everyday for you
tell me why i cry
i'll be your best kept secret



help me, i'm falling... im falling]



when i see your fiery red eyes
you melt me into a pile of depression,
i know that you ar not mine
so why do i waste my time lusting for you?



i see you there all alone and want to comfort you
though i dont know what to say,
will you realize how i feel
after you see these papers?



will you feel the same way back?
i know you wont because there's that someone
but to me if you can finally be with him
i will be happy for you,



but only because you are happy...
i hate these triangles of love,
of hate, of... lust






[I can't get these words out,
I can't think of anything else,
I try to love again though
I am reminded more and more of you



I scream these words
through a pencil and a hand
though these tears decode
the words i could never say



Why do i go down this path day by day?
Why does it hurt more this time?
I see those brown, tear-filled eyes,
I see your checkered belt and
That ribbon in your hair



And then i realize how short
this life is... I don't
want to wait a lifetime
of regretting what could of been...]












[Strings and All]
Plastic & Lace
Plastic hearts & laced up smiles
Tie up with your lies
they go on for miles
The bow is bigger then New York
just take your analytical fork
& stab me, yes stab me
delete me from your memory
close the window
watch as the world passes you by
your sister isn't home
your parents don't care
your phone will never ring
cause no one is there
the make up world you wished you lived in
the imaginary family where no one fights
all disappears with a flick of the light
snap back to dad yelling
mom is crying
dogs are barking at the wind
you silently pray that God will send
some one for you
some one to never ignore you..
your little prison window shatters
before your eyes
will this compromise
what you hold inside?
you quickly run from all the pain
nothing to lose nothing to gain
your wrists still sore thighs still bleeding
knowing no own cares if your still breathing
plastic hearts & laced up smiles
all your lies that go on for miles
are my lies to
I'm just like you
I'm that failure in the mirror
we can delete each other
with one little trigger
Goodbye Shelia, Goodbye Jesse
Goodbye world that will never miss me