My favorite song by Element Eighty
      Texas Cries


Texas cries inside
but I feel you
Texas cries inside
I still feel you
I don't know why you run away when I need you
and I don't know why you run away


Why did you leave me
I thought you said you loved me
I thought you said you needed me
I guess I was wrong
Why did you leave me
I thought you said you loved me
I thought you said you needed me
I guess I was wrong


Texas cries inside
but I feel you
Texas cries inside
I still feel you
I don't know why you run away when I need you
and I don't know why you run away


Why did you leave me
I thought you said you loved me
I thought you said you needed me
I guess I was wrong
Why did you leave me
I thought you said you loved me
I thought you said you needed me
I guess I was wrong


And now as I'm running out of rounds
as I'm falling to the ground
can you hear the sound
cause I need you now
as I'm running out of rounds
as I'm falling to the ground
can you hear the sound
cause I need you now
cause I need you now


And why did you leave me
I thought you said you loved me
I thought you said you needed me
I guess I was wrong
(Repeat 3 times)


Texas Cries

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my bestest friends on elftown,cathug and elfpack
[xThe Ringmasterx]my very very very bestest best friend
[perguin]very bestest best friend
[Nuktae-tal]bestest best friend
[*.:.OrangE Insanity.:.*]bestest best friend
i love everyone on this list

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NOTHING ELSE MATTERS
So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know

So close no matter how far
It couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know


I never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they say
Never cared for games they play
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
And I know

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
No, nothing else matters

i would just like to dedicate this song to everyone i hold dear to my heart   i love u guys very much and u know who u r

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heres a couple of poems i worte

      DARKNESS by:josh adams
        darkness is my friend,
    it helps me control my inner demon,
    though people say it's depression,
        to me it's happiness.

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      INSANITY by:josh adams
   sanity so close yet so far away,
  most of us say we aren't insane,
        but we are all insane,
  because insanity dwells within us all.

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      TORN SOUL by:josh adams
      as i dip slowly into darkness
 my soul gets torn apart by all my demons
     and i slip slowly into depression
     the most peaceful place to be

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heres a song i wrote i hope u like it and tell me what u think of it

title:Im Sorry
artist:Josh Adams

Im sorry for all the shit i have put u through
Im sorry for everything I've done
Im sorry for hurting you
Im sorry for making you cry

chorus
Im sorry i hope someday you could forgive me because i still care about u

Im sorry i got you mad
Im sorry i made you miserable
Im sorry i lied to you
Im sorry i put you through hell

chorus

solo

i wrote that song for one of my dearest friends im sorry

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Happy?
by Mudvayne
album: Lost And Found [Released 11th April] (2005)
In this hole
That is me
The dead are rolling over
In this hole
Thickening
Dirt's shoveled over shoulders

I feel it's me
So overwhelmed
Oh there's precious little rising

My life overturned
What dare the despair?
All these scars keep ripping open

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear me from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?

In this hole
That is me
A life that's growing feeble
In this hole
So limiting
The sun has set, all darkens

Buried underneath
And slip off the wheel
Eternal pathways to contention

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear me from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?

I am
Happy
I am
Happy
Are you feeling happy?

In this hole
That is me
Left with a heart exhausted

What's my release?
What sets me free?
Do you pull me up
Just to push me down again?

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear me from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?

Peel me from the skin (Peel me from the skin)
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear me from the bone (Tear me from the bone)
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?

Does it make you happy?
Are you feeling happy?
Are you fucking happy
Now that I'm lost, left with nothing?

Does it make you happy?
Are you feeling happy?
Are you fucking happy
Now that I’m lost, left with nothing?

one of my fav mudvayne songs

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We Don't Die
by Twiztid
album: Freek Show (2000)
We ain't underground by accident
It's only a select few that can handle this, Freek shit
Apparition of a poltergiest
Blessed with a heart
But it's cold as ice, and broken twice
Now I walk with an axe
Dressed in all jet black with contacts
Straight maniac
Warlock, Sam Hain of Salem's lot
Sand through the hour glass
Tickin' of the clock

If you don't know by now it's too late
We the most serious things on the market since date rape
We the dead, we don't explain or feel pain, bezerko
Keep it underground and maintain
Bitch you better check nuts
I'm doin' brutality 66 for 6 months
Ridin' in a decked out hearse with gold spokes
Puffin' on a two toke blunt with dead folks
And it's like that

Axe murderers, We don't die
Serial killas, We don't die
Freeks of the night, We don't die
We get high, We don't die

Comin' up outta the ground from the underground tunnel I dug
To keep away from the mainstream love
I just want somebody to move and get hurt
Got your hole dug deep in the dirt
Can't work with you bitch muthafuckas makin' love to the rest
With a bitch name tatted on your chest
Me and mufuckin' Madrox
Hauntin' the joint
Bringin' depth to the people that don't get the point, we don't die

I'm real just like a seven dollar bill
Voice my opinion regardless of how you feel
Freek shit, it ain't about being rich
It's about juggalos, and runnin' with lunatics
As long as y'all rock this we won't quit
We do it all for y'all I mean that shit
Every one of y'all means everything to me
We bleed for y'all that's why we call it family

Axe murderers, We don't die
Serial killas, We don't die
Freeks of the night, We don't die
We get high, We don't die

We try to explain the element of my self inflicted pain
We're not positive and uplifted
Fuck you, walk a mile in our shoes
Experience hard times, and payin' helly dues
Freek shit, what I live, what I breathe
Cast out munex like his disease
Still they try to ban our sound
Cause supposedly we be resurrectin' the dead from under hollow ground

You in the dead zone, ten points for us
You smellin' cigarette smoke right before your lungs bust
You can't trust 'em
But I can bust 'em in half, and sit back and laugh at all the shit I did
Can you do that?
Could you school that?
Better yet, I'm the wigged out serial killa type War vet
Freek show different than the rest
But I love it though, put you to the test

Axe murderers, We don't die
Serial killas, We don't die
Freeks of the night, We don't die
We get high, We don't die

Axe murderers, We don't die
Serial killas, We don't die
Freeks of the night, We don't die
We get high, We don't die

Axe murderers, We don't die
Serial killas, We don't die
Freeks of the night, We don't die
We get high, We don't die

this is my fav twiztid song

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Let's Go All The Way
by Insane Clown Posse
album: Bizzar (2000)
aint nobody jealous

everybody has they own

nobody locked up

everybody, everybody is free to rome

look at that scrubby (jus chillin) with a hottie on his side

look at them rich kids, poor kids together on the same side

and they down to ride

CHORUS
Lets go all the way (lets go all the way!)
lets go all the way (lets go all the way!)
lets go all the way

Aint nobody left out everybody gets to go

it can never be too crowded c'mon we still pickin up some mo

dont nobody hate you playa hate you

there aint no hate at all

got a million hands here to catch you

they'll catch you and they never will let you fall

you aint gotta worry all of yall

~CHORUS~

Never no sickness, no sickness nobody has to die

everythings censored one thing is there

youll never havta wonder why

wont nobody rush you, no code red

be as long as you wanna be

can you guess what this place is

your future make it a reality all you havta do is follow me

~CHORUS x2~

my fav insane clown posse song

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i am a member of [slipknot's disasterpieces]

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the pic says it all

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this is my sis steph but she really isnt my sis its sarahs aka [Kittie Kat] sis

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its me and my big fat buddy chewy thats sarahs aka [Kittie Cat] cat

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I wish I may, I wish I might
Have this wish I wish tonight
I want that star, I want it now
I want it all and I don't care how

Careful what you wish
Careful what you say
Careful what you wish, you may regret it
Careful what you wish, you just might get it

this is from a metallica song called king nothing man metallica kicks ass

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i drew this for a tattoo design i am getting on my back

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one of my favorite songs from a perfect circle
Imagine
eMOTIVe

Imagine there's no heaven,
It's easy if you try,
No hell below us,
Above us only sky,
Imagine all the people
living for today...

Imagine there's no countries,
It isnt hard to do,
Nothing to kill or die for,
No religion too,
Imagine all the people
living life in peace...

Imagine no possesions,
I wonder if you can,
No need for greed or hunger,
A brotherhood of man,
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say Im a dreamer,
but Im not the only one,
I hope some day you'll join us,
And the world will live as one.

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element eighty
evanescence
flaw
from zero
godsmack
hatebreed
icp
jack off jill
jerry cantrell
killswitch engage
kittie
korn
lamb of god
linkin park
lit
lostprophets
marilyn manson
megadeth
megaherz
metallica
motley crue
mudvayne
muse
mushroomhead
my chemical romance
nickel back
nirvana
no address
orgy
ozzy
papa roach
pearl jam
queens of the stone age
rammstein
ratt
rob zombie
saliva
seether
sevendust
shadows fall
skid row
slipknot
smashing pumpkins
spineshank
staind
static-x
stonesour
sum-41
system of a down
taproot
the doors
the offspring
the scorpions
the white strips
three days grace
tool
trust company
twiztid
unwritten law
weezer
white zombie
zwan
dedlock
and many many more.....

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My Letter
by Flaw
album: Through the eyes
This is my letter to you
We started following a certain description
We started simple and fair, once again
Before there wasn't any need for an answer
Things were much different then, but

Chorus:

Now you question who I am
Who I am inside
Now there's nothing left to hide
So here it goes
This is my letter
Hope you're alright
It's been rough for me
Thinking all night
About the places I'd be
If I maybe
Just did a little bit more
You might've Let me
Become a man for sure
And if I might
Express one concern
It seems an issue
All day at every turn
What's the next step
The latest hole in my life
What's next for me to learn?

What's next for me to learn?

Engulf myself into a permanent mystery
No one day just as the next (Not for me)
It's so confusing when I look at my history
I just can't handle that yet
No

(chorus)

One more friendship ends
And then for awhile
I can breathe again

Hope you're alright
It's been rough for me
Thinking all night
About the places I'd be
If I maybe
Just did a little bit more
You might've let me
Become a man for sure
And if I might
Express one concern
It seems an issue
All day at every turn
What's the next step
The latest hole in my life
What's next for me to learn?

What's next for me to learn?

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MY FAV BANDS

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(Image deleted by the guards)my favorite slipknot quote

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Wait for me
by Flaw
album: Endangered Species (2004)
All these miles
Haunting questions linger in my mind
All the while making bad decisions out of line
Still I’ve tried, to let go of the danger in my life
It’s alright, when that’s the only thing I’ve left behind
And there’s still time….

Wait for me
There’s so much more of life for us to see
You must believe
It’s not because of you I had to leave
Wait for me
I only hope that you’ll remember me

At this time
I’m counting all the reasons I should stay
The bottom line
I’m missing all the things I gave away
I remind
See your faces every single day
Still I’m blind
I wish that there was something I could say
To make things right…

Chorus

Just hold on a little bit longer
The thoughts and memories will be enough
My need for you is only growing stronger I know you don’t understand it much
But it doesn’t mean I have to care about you any less
It doesn’t have a thing to do with that
There’s still so many questions that are going to be addressed
I’m sorry that it had to be like this…
But there’s still time to make things right

Chorus

Wait for me

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[about me .1.]
-- Name: josh
-- Nickname: mister
-- Birthdate: 02-02-1985
-- Birthplace: utah
-- Current location: texas
-- Eye color: hazel
-- Hair color: brown
-- Height: 6 ft
-- Righty or lefty: righty





[about me .2.]
-- Your heritage: idian,irish,scottish,hugrian gypsy,english
-- The shoes you wore today: i always wear vans
-- Your weakness: a friend with a problem
-- Your fears: dieing alone
-- Your perfect pizza: one with pizza sauce, cheese, pizza crust, and whatever
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: get a band started





[about me .3.]
-- Your most used phrase: howdy
-- Your thoughts first waking up: whats today?
-- Your best feature: i dont know what do u think
-- Your bedtime: when ever i fall asleep
-- Your most missed memory: cali





[about me .4.]
-- Soda: just about anything
-- Fast food joint: just about anywhere
-- Single or group dates: depends where its at
-- Adidas or Nike: umm Vans
-- Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
-- Cappuccino or coffee: neither





[about me .5.]
Do You:
-- Smoke: no
-- Swear: fuck no
-- Sing: to myself
-- Take a shower every day: when i feel like it
-- Have a crush(es): plural
-- Are you in love: yup
-- Want to go to college: someday
-- Like high school: not in school
-- Want to get married: yup
-- Believe in yourself: for the most part
-- Get motion sickness: not yet
-- Think you're attractive: i guess
-- Think you're a health freak: a freak yes a health freak hell no
-- Get along with your parents: for the most part
-- Like thunderstorms: hell yeah
-- Play an instrument: not yet





[about me .6.]
In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: no
-- Smoked: no
-- Done a drugs: no
-- Had sex: no
-- Had unprotected sex: no
-- Made out: no
-- Gone on a date: no
-- Gone to the mall: no
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos:
-- Eaten sushi: no
-- Been on stage: no
-- Gone skating: no
-- Made homemade cookies: no
-- Gone skinny-dipping: no
-- Dyed your hair: no
-- Stolen anything: no



[about me .7.]
Ever...
-- Smoked pot, or done any other illegal drugs: never have and never will
-- Had Sex: yes
-- Cheated on someone: nope and i never will
-- Been in love: is right now
-- Had your heart broken: more then once
-- Broken Someone else's heart: never ment to
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: yes
-- Been extremely drunk: nope and never will
-- Been caught doing something: almost
-- Been called a tease: nope
-- Gotten beaten up: nope
-- Shoplifted: yea
-- Changed who you were to fit in: nope i have always been me





[about me .8.]
-- Do you hope to be married: yup
-- Numbers and names of children: 2 boy raziel and girl dont know yet
-- Describe your dream wedding: anywhere my gf wants to get married at
-- How do you want to die: old
-- Where do you want to go to college: anywhere that will accept me
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: in a band or a graphic artist
-- What country would you most like to visit: any



[about me .9.]
In a girl….
-- Best eye color: doesnt matter
-- Best hair color: doesnt matter
-- Short or long hair: doesnt matter
-- Height: doesnt matter
-- Best weight: doesnt matter
-- Best articles of clothing: what they feel comfy in
-- Best first date location: dont care
-- Best first kiss location: dont care





[about me .10.]
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: 0
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: 4 or 5
-- Number of CDs that I own:180
-- Number of piercings: 3 ear,eyebrow,and le bret
-- Number of tattoos: i wanna get around 4 or 5
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: none
-- Number of scars on my body: too many to count
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: a lot

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Surfacing
Running out of ways to run
I can't see, I can't be
Over and over and under my skin
All this attention is DOING ME IN!

FUCK IT ALL! FUCK THIS WORLD!
FUCK EVERYTHING THAT YOU STAND FOR!
DON'T BELONG! DON'T EXIST!
DON'T GIVE ME A SHIT!
DON'T EVER JUDGE ME!

Picking through the parts exposed
Taking shape, taking shag
Over and over and under my skin
All this momentum is DOING ME IN!

FUCK IT ALL! FUCK THIS WORLD!
FUCK EVERYTHING THAT YOU STAND FOR!
DON'T BELONG! DON'T EXIST!
DON'T GIVE A SHIT!
DON'T EVER JUDGE ME!

You got all my love, livin' in your own hate
Drippin' hole man, hard step, no fate
Show you nuthin', but I ain't holdin' back
Every damn word I say is a sneak attack
When I get my hands on you
Ain't a fuck thing you can do
Get this cuz you're never gonna get me
I am the very disease you pretend to be

I am the push that makes you move

this is my fav slipknot song