Rejected


I looked in the mirror today and I saw the scars upon my face... I realized that I am not the same as everyone else. Does that make me ugly? Does that make me not beautiful. The world today is all the same, there is no room for imperfections. We have people killing themselves everyday over people bullying them for not being skinny enough or for not having enough money or even for having scars that you could not control. What does it take to be perfect? You tell me...

Losing my virginity


I believe I found him, as crazy as it may sound, the one. The one that I could live my life with. I have never felt so strongly about someone before. Am I in love... No I couldn't be... After all I just met the guy... But he is so great... Yet he also took my virginity... Is it love... well... It just couldn't be... I am so messed up right now... He is leaving for the national guard and I will be alone... But he will return and I will be happy again... Why must he be eighteen... two little digits 1-8 can make a decision on whether or not we can be together... Shit I am so confused.

12/5/05
Brown County Case Number 2005CF000954
That's my dads case number^^^^^. I really hope he gets out before christmas. I MISS HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!~*&*~Jazzy~*&*~!