[Why won't you listen?]'s diary

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Written about Sunday 2006-07-02
Written: (6510 days ago)

She is waving out of the window,
her smile is red as a wound.
And my quiet heart goes to pieces.
It's been a lonely year in this room,
and I will not ignore you like before.
My january promises are more than words softly spoken.

And everything I told you was stolen from a book.
I read something about kisses in a science magazine.
Something they can't capture in the sweetest movie scenes.

4072  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2006-07-02
Written: (6510 days ago)

Now I found a way to make you smile
Pretending I am someone else
Cause I really missed your smile
More than I missed myself
You found a way to keep it inside
To a point where you can't feel a thing
And silence suits us fine
Cause we are not listening
No, we're not listening

4071  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2006-07-02
Written: (6510 days ago)

And you tried to tell me how you feel.
I couldn't hear you say a thing.
You tried to tell me how you feel.
I wasn't listening, I wasn't listening.

4070  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2006-07-02
Written: (6510 days ago)

I tried so hard to make you smile.

4068  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2006-07-02
Written: (6510 days ago)

It's been a lonely year in this room.

4067  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2006-07-02
Written: (6510 days ago)

like a child with tears in his eyes
you've made me weak

4066  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2006-07-02
Written: (6510 days ago)

And then comes that feeling
that sneaking feeling
the only one I can't do anything about
then I close the soul
squeezing it to death
and find a heavenly drug
and then comes that feeling
am I the only one
who never understands?

4065  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2006-07-02
Written: (6510 days ago)

do you see what I see?
I'm almost like you

4064  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2006-07-02
Written: (6510 days ago)

Utan Dina Andetag - Without Your Breath

I know you're asleep
feel the heat from your skin
just the smell makes me weak
but I don't dare to wake you now

I would give you
everything you want
but only when you don't hear
I dare to say so

I cannot even walk
without your air in my lungs
I cannot even stand
when you're not watching
and transparent like grey
is what I'll be like
without your breath

My watch has stopped
under your eyelids
the dreams pass by
you're light as a feather inside

And without a sound
my heart in your hand
I've lost my speech
it remains in your hair

I cannot even walk
without your air in my lungs
I cannot even stand
when you're not watching
colourless like a tear
is what I'll be like
without your breath

I cannot even walk
without your air in my lungs
I cannot even stand
if you're not watching
and transparent like grey
what would I be like
without your breath

What would I be like
without your breath?

4063  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2006-07-02
Written: (6510 days ago)

Nothing
I can't remember anything
Nothing
I can't feel anything

You can hurt me
as much as you want to
But you give me the chance
to do it myself
I give you
all the stories I have
I know anyway that
I'll never come back

4062  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2006-07-02
Written: (6510 days ago)

They're forgotten.
But they're speaking through the pencil in my hand.
And they carried me all the way here.

4060  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2006-07-02
Written: (6510 days ago)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RvoT3gnG5zI&search=We%27re%20Going%20To%20Be%20Friends


Fall is here,hear the yell
back to school,ring the bell
brand new shoes,walking blues
climb the fence,books and pens
I can tell that we're going to be friends

Walk with me,Suzy Lee
through the park and by the tree
we will rest upon the ground
and look at all the bugs we found
then safely walk to school
without a sound

Well here we are,no one else
we walked to school all by ourselves
there's dirt on our uniforms
from chasing all the ants and worms
we clean up and now its time to learn

Numbers,letters,learn to spell
nouns,and books,and show and tell
at playtime we will throw the ball
back to class,through the hall
teacher marks our height
against the wall

And we don't notice any time pass
we don't notice anything
we sit side by side in every class
teacher thinks that I sound funny
but she likes the way you sing

Tonight I'll dream while I'm in bed
when silly thoughts go through my head
about the bugs and alphabet
and when I wake tommorow I'll bet
that you and I will walk together again
cause I can tell that we're going to be friends

4058  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2006-07-01
Written: (6510 days ago)
3996  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-05-25
Written: (6548 days ago)


magnetic fields: love is like a bottle of gin


It makes you blind, it does you in
It makes you think you're pretty tough
It makes you prone to crime and sin
It makes you say thing off the cuff
It's very small and made of glass
and grossly over-advertised
It turns a genius into an ass
and makes a fool think he is wise
It could make you regret your birth
or turn cartwheels in your best suit
It costs a lot more than it's worth
and yet there is no substitute
They keep it on a higher shelf
the older and more pure it grows
It has no color in itself
but it can make you see rainbows
You can find it at the Bowery
or you can find it at Elaine's
It makes your words more flowery
It makes the sun shine, makes it rain
You just get what they put in
and they never put in enough
Love is like a bottle of gin
but a bottle of gin is not like love


3992  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-05-25
Written: (6548 days ago)




magnetic fields: the one you really love


I do believe our love's in danger
I might as well be loving air
You look at me like I'm a stranger
You look at me like I'm not there
I gaze into your eyes of blue
but their beauty is not for me
You're thinking of someone who's gone
You're dreaming of the one you really love

I made you mine, or so it seemed
Though he is dead he haunts your dreams
I might as well be two ft. tall
You never will love me at all...
You're dreaming of the corpse you really love


3987  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2006-05-22
Written: (6550 days ago)









I feel hypnotised. I feel paralysed.


I must live with this reality. I am yours eternally.

Why won't you show me little bit of spine you've been saving for his mattress?
I only want sympathy in the form of you crawling into bed with me.


Your burning eyes cause flames to arise.


I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears.
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone.


Tame me with your tenderness and break my brittle heart. Easily and elegantly, tear my world apart.


And the skin I call my own has a heart that quits, knees that buckle in,
and lungs that can't breath when they're alone.



And isn't it sad that you still have to ask if I care?


When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears.
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
And I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have all of me.


I am lost in your eyes - hypnotised.


This one goes out to the one I love. This one goes out to the one I've left behind.


We're damaged people drawn together by subtleties that we are not aware of.
Disturbed souls, playing out forever these games that we once thought we would be scared of.


When you're in my arms, the world makes sense. There is no pretence.


I have watched the stars fall silent from your eyes.


We're damaged people praying for something that doesn't come from somewhere deep inside us.
Depraved souls, trusting in the one thing the one thing that this life has not denied us.


I'll let you be in my dream if I can be in yours.



You used to captivate me by your resonating light.
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind.
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams.
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me.


Just give me a reason some kind of sign. I'll need a miracle to help me this time.
I heard what you said and I feel the same. I know in my heart that I'll have to change.


What chance did I have with the silver moon hanging in the sky opening old wounds?


I'm hanging on your words, living on your breath, feeling with your skin. Will I always be here?


But I'll still take the best you've got. Even though I'm sure it's not the best for me.


How did we get to be this far apart?


I'll probably burn in hell for saying this but I'm really in heaven whenever we kiss.
But oh no! You won't change me. You can try for an eternity.


Why can't I feel anything from anyone else other than you?


Bring your chains, your lips of tragedy and fall into my arms.


So many times I have brought you down that I have already lost all count, and I seem to be doing it again.
No matter how hard I have tried I have crumbled time after time and kept failing in the end.
Sometimes it feels it would be better for you all if I ceased to exist or was never born at all.
So many times I have let you down, shadowed the shine of our sun and drowned you in tears and misery
that it is hard for me to see how you can after all these years still be standing by me...
Sometimes it feels it would be better for us all if I ceased to exist or was never born at all.
Sometimes it feels it would be easier to fall than to flutter in the air with these wings so weak and torn...



I'm just an angel driving blindly through this world.
I'm just a slave here at the mercy of a girl.
Oh I need your tenderness.
Oh I need your touch.
Oh I dream of one caress.
Oh I pray too much.


I live no more to shame nor me nor you.









Lyrics are by:
Depeche Mode
Nightwish
Sentenced
R.E.M.
Sonata Arctica
Evanescence
Taking Back Sunday
Fall Out Boy
Garbage
Bob Dylan



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