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[Why won't you listen?]'s diary

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Written about Thursday 2006-05-25
Written: (6786 days ago)

magnetic fields: the one you really love

I do believe our love's in danger
I might as well be loving air
You look at me like I'm a stranger
You look at me like I'm not there
I gaze into your eyes of blue
but their beauty is not for me
You're thinking of someone who's gone
You're dreaming of the one you really love

I made you mine, or so it seemed
Though he is dead he haunts your dreams
I might as well be two ft. tall
You never will love me at all...
You're dreaming of the corpse you really love

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Written about Monday 2006-05-22
Written: (6789 days ago)

I feel hypnotised. I feel paralysed.

I must live with this reality. I am yours eternally.
Why won't you show me little bit of spine you've been saving for his mattress?
I only want sympathy in the form of you crawling into bed with me.

Your burning eyes cause flames to arise.

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears.
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone.

Tame me with your tenderness and break my brittle heart. Easily and elegantly, tear my world apart.

And the skin I call my own has a heart that quits, knees that buckle in,
and lungs that can't breath when they're alone.

And isn't it sad that you still have to ask if I care?

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears.
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
And I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still have all of me.

I am lost in your eyes - hypnotised.

This one goes out to the one I love. This one goes out to the one I've left behind.

We're damaged people drawn together by subtleties that we are not aware of.
Disturbed souls, playing out forever these games that we once thought we would be scared of.

When you're in my arms, the world makes sense. There is no pretence.

I have watched the stars fall silent from your eyes.

We're damaged people praying for something that doesn't come from somewhere deep inside us.
Depraved souls, trusting in the one thing the one thing that this life has not denied us.

I'll let you be in my dream if I can be in yours.

You used to captivate me by your resonating light.
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind.
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams.
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me.

Just give me a reason some kind of sign. I'll need a miracle to help me this time.
I heard what you said and I feel the same. I know in my heart that I'll have to change.

What chance did I have with the silver moon hanging in the sky opening old wounds?

I'm hanging on your words, living on your breath, feeling with your skin. Will I always be here?

But I'll still take the best you've got. Even though I'm sure it's not the best for me.

How did we get to be this far apart?

I'll probably burn in hell for saying this but I'm really in heaven whenever we kiss.
But oh no! You won't change me. You can try for an eternity.

Why can't I feel anything from anyone else other than you?

Bring your chains, your lips of tragedy and fall into my arms.

So many times I have brought you down that I have already lost all count, and I seem to be doing it again.
No matter how hard I have tried I have crumbled time after time and kept failing in the end.
Sometimes it feels it would be better for you all if I ceased to exist or was never born at all.
So many times I have let you down, shadowed the shine of our sun and drowned you in tears and misery
that it is hard for me to see how you can after all these years still be standing by me...
Sometimes it feels it would be better for us all if I ceased to exist or was never born at all.
Sometimes it feels it would be easier to fall than to flutter in the air with these wings so weak and torn...

I'm just an angel driving blindly through this world.
I'm just a slave here at the mercy of a girl.
Oh I need your tenderness.
Oh I need your touch.
Oh I dream of one caress.
Oh I pray too much.

I live no more to shame nor me nor you.

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[Why won't you listen?]'s diary

And the skin I call my own has a heart that quits, knees that buckle in, and lungs that can't breath when they're alone.

I'll let you be in my dream if I can be in yours.